domingo, 18 de abril de 2010

Priorities: Work, school travel... Sailing, graffitti workshop...(!?)

Hello all,
well well well. Lets see. Friday was a neat day. It was really beautiful out- the sun was shining, and I was hanging on my roof with my roomate, reading, chatting etc... Then I got a text from my friend Rachael asking if I wanted to go sailing with her and her friends (two of which are in the Navy and have access to boats). Obviouisly, I said yes, and happily rode my bike to Viña to meet up with them. About halfway into my ride I realized that I had signed up for a graffitti workshop that day at 5. It was already about 3, and I knew I would not return to Valpo anywhere within the 5 o clock hour. Hmmmm. I could either turn around, wait for 2 hours and go to graffitti, OR go sailing. I chose to go sailing.
It was great, but I felt really seasick for a bit and needed to lay down. It was cool at first, and then I realized how much I disliked the feeling of my foundation swaying underneath me (common theme???). So, I continued to breathe, drank some water, tried to convince myself to just get over it, and eventually felt better on the way back to the dock. Sweet, sweet ground!
After I got back to Valpo, I made some dinner with my roomates and had a party. My French roomates themed it where everyone had to dress as anything that starts with the letter "J". Little tricky, but they were all the Jackson 5 (really funny) and I was a Journey. I wore little things from my trip, as I originally wasnt stoked on the theme, but got more into it as the night went on.
The next day was nice, and I built a little table and chairs with my roomate (who is 6 months pregnant and impresses me daily) and then had an asado on my rooftop with friends. It sounds great, and it was, but I had slowly manifested a terrible migrane, and spent the rest of the night in bed, trying to get over the pain.
This has happened a few times this year, and I am trying to catalogue every time when it happens to see what the factors could be. Something I ate, something I did? Not enough water, change in the climate??? One common theme is sleep. Nights where I havent slept well, or enough, etc... And now I think another common theme is stress.
STRESS!?!?!?! Whaaatttt!?!??! My Pacific, relaxed life here could be causing me stress? Well, not likely. But the lack of structure the wondering constantly of what I am going to make up for myself to do today, the never ending thoughts about how much I miss my family, or that one time....... Whatever it may be, I just put my head in to spins thinking and reeling, and trying to figure out what is good, better, best and ok for me to do here. Here, there, anywhere. So maybe thats it. My body is manifesting all of these negative things and feelings and building them up in myself to the point where they cause excruciating pain physically. I am (we are) one living system, after all. One being where each aspect has an effect on the other(s). So, trying to maintain that all in one healthy balance. huh. ok. Working on that.
So where do I fit in in my priorities? Obviously, I would like to say that my health and my needs come first, but I still party sometimes, I still eat too much sometimes, I still don´t find outlets for my emotions so they stay and cause my body pain... And then there is school, and how I live every other aspect of my life. How I treat my friends, how I care for people that care about me. How I want to and need to be "there" for people, while still being "there" for me.
Do I/we have to pick-and-choose where our priorities lie? I guess so. Why else would we go to work on a beautiful day? Money, job More important than getting out on a nice day.
Right!?
...Still working on the traveling/school priority list. I guess it depends on how you even define "education" in the first place... But thats a different thought entirely.
Off to bed now, to rest my weary head.
chau chau

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