...on time, a year and other things...(like my genie)

Heeelo all
If you aven´t seen the movie GATTACA, and enjoy a good strange flick then you should watch it. It is set in "the future" where people are geneticly pre-determined. Good hair, Dad´s nice eyes, not prone to heart desease, depression or any of that sort, and with a long life expectancy. The main character was naturally born (oh no!) and is predetermined to have a bad heart, short life span, agression, etc... He works in a space station as a janitor until he finds a man ( a former Olympic swimmer) whose DNA he can use so that he can be "qualified" to go into Space. So, he goes through this whole process of shedding excess skin and hair everyday and sprinkling his workstation with the shedded skin and hair of the other Geneticlly Superior guy (who is tragically confined to a wheelchair), as the company does routine DNA checks to keep everything good and square. Anyway, the story develops and gets good and it is a movie that I definately recommend.
We watched this movie in Pucón when we were down there, and I was very pleasently surprised that it was on. There´s this one point where the protagonist is dancing with a woman he is beginning to fall for just (conveniently) as he is about to go into space for a year. They exchange words about "wanting to leave and then finding a reason to stay..." and then the woman, Uma Thurman says "well, what is a year but one rotaiton around the sun?"
...And so begin my thoughts on that...
A year. One year around the sun. I have thought about this so many times, it makes my head spin. "I am going to Chile for a year" was in the forefront of my mind for months before I came here. I WAS in Chile in February, March, April, may, etc.... And then I got here, and it was like, "ok, now what?" Like being put into a room (or something) and told to make something of it. Make light, put stuff on the walls, re-model, paint, create, invite friends to come and see it. Something like that. And then it seems to be over. I will get on a plane back to the US, and then what? I´ve thought numerous times about re-uniting with my friends and family, and having fun and seeing everything with different eyes, etc... But I´m not there yet. I am here. Sometimes I can´´t think at all and others I think it may be the death of me. Where is the balance between thinking, living, doing and just BEing. I don´t think I thought about my 7th grade year this much, so why is this one any different? I mean, it is infinately different, but I´m still here, still living and still me. Still. Me. I´m different and the same all at once. I am ever changing and transforming, and eternaly Me. Always.
Reflecting always comes around this time on a New Year. New goals, desires, improvements, firsts, lasts and a good look back at how the year has gone so far. Last year at this time I was different (obvio). In a comitted relationship, and getting ready for a big adventure to go down the Grand Canyon for 15 days. THAT was a fun trip. I didn´t journal much about it, but it has penetrated into my soul in many ways. This end of year has been so wild when I think about where I was at the Beginning of the year. Knowing I was coming here, and still being there. January of 2009 is like an ooooold memory from far far away. But it wasn´t that long ago really. hm. Juuuust thinking... But its great, really this whole "time" thing we´ve created. It is fun to manipulate it and have a Good time, have it fly or crawl or whatever. Whatever we make of it is what it is.
on Ted.com (which you should ALL check out) I watched this video lecture by Elizabeth Gilbert, the author, as she talked about "genius" and inspiration, and where they come from. I guess the Greeks and Romans believed it to be a kind of spirit or something that visits you, and helps you (or inspires you) to create your work of genius. Certianly us mortals cannot take all of the credit for these great works of art ourselfs! There is another force working here that helps us realize our greatness. So where is my genie!? I´ve been needing it lately-maybe it´s with someone else right now. So I´ll wait. I´ll hang out and do my thing and hope it shows up to do its thing.
There is always music here! Weather on the radio, blairing from other houses, or a man walking the streets with a guitar and singing. I love it.
I am almost done filling the pages of a journal (Book) that I´ve had for over 2 years. there´s quite a bit of stuff in it, and it mostly serves as my pensive (any Harry Potter fans out there? Dumbeldore´s Pensive???). Its great.
So, a new Decade is upon us. What shal we make of it?
Until next time...
Chau!
oh! And I took a Cuban dance class last night, and it was great. :)